Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Who Am I?

Lately, I feel a little disappointed in who I am.

I'm not crafty.  I'm not clever.  I'm not funny.  I'm not even that fun to be with.  I'm a very serious, plain-minded person.

I wish I was really good at something.  I do a lot of everything, but at everything I do, I am just mediocre.  So mediocre in fact that I feel pretty much invisible.  I feel like I could disappear and nobody would even notice I was gone.

I don't know if this is sort of a post-Christmas blues or a post-pregnancy loss blues.  I just feel like I contribute nothing to anything.

Maybe I could be the best at being average?


PC said...

"We are daughters of our Heavenly Father, who loves us, and we love Him."

Seems like a good place to start. All that other stuff you mention in this post are at best tangential to this. A lot of the YW theme appears to focus on attributes of being, not doing. Until this:

"We believe as we come to accept and act upon these values,
we will be prepared to strengthen home and family, make and keep sacred covenants,
receive the ordinances of the temple, and enjoy the blessings of exaltation."

Again, don't see much there related to what you complain of lacking in your post.

Maybe it's time to look somewhere else for your self-validation, more in line with the above?

Jana Perkins said...

First of all...*hugs*. Let me assure you, you are NOT mediocre! You are a daughter of God.

"The Lord knows who we are, where we are, and what our mission is, and what we need in order to accomplish that mission. Not only has He known us for a long, long time, He has loved us for a long, long time. We are here now because we are supposed to be here now. No one else can have the influence or do the good that we were prepared and foreordained to have and do. No one else can fulfill our individual missions." -Sheri Dew

Pray for guidance and direction to find out how to fufill whatever mission the Lord has sent you hear to do. I don't know you too well, but I can tell you that you amaze me with all you do. Your an amazing writer, mother, and friend and I can tell that just by the communications we've had.

Royalbird said...

I think a lot of this tends to get lost for me in the day-to-day activities. I know all these things but sometimes it's hard to really feel them on a daily basis when I'm dealing with kids and school and everything that goes along with managing a household. I lose sight of who I am in the eternal perspective. I think that if I go back to the basics (scripture reading, praying, attending the temple, etc.) I will feel this more.


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